Gotta put this down so it stops bothering me

As much as I wanted to be there to watch, and to support everyone single one of you, I couldn't bring myself to do it. I know I'd just feel little but burning jealousy, endless regrets, and a bitter taste in my mouth. I've been there before, and I don't want to be there again. I hope you don't misunderstand, and don't hate me for it